LOL.
Uh...no. I don't. Though it is nice to know I appear that way.
Remember that this is only my blog. I love to record the wonderful moments of raising my kids. I also write about things that I am doing or thinking. But I usually avoid telling you about things that I am no good at, such as my cooking, because there is very little to tell. I mean, do you really need recipes for pancakes?
Motherhood is full of good days, bad days, peaks and valleys. And by the grace of God, He carries me through all of it.
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. (Lam 2:23-24)
And He knows that right now I need His compassions to be new EVERY morning! I am so thankful that they are.
But let me take a moment to assure you that this is a very normal house. There are attitude issues, temper tantrums, sleepless nights, crying babies, messy floors, unfinished laundry, and much more. In fact, there is probably a lot more of that in my house right now than anyone of your homes because I am blogging on my one free night instead of taking care of it. *wink
And right now, I am completely overwhelmed by the birth of our fourth child.
I wake up and often neglect my two older children while I try desperately to get some extra sleep. My two year old is watching way too much TV so I can remain sane. I have to step over laundry baskets regularly just to get around my living room. And let's not even talk about the bathrooms...
Things are spiraling out of control quickly!
Two days ago my husband received a phone call at work with me in tears. There was no good reason to be crying other than the fact that I was overwhelmed. I believe the conversation went something like this:
Me: Hey. How are you?
Eric: Fine. What's up?
Me: (silence as the tears began to form)
Eric: You OK?
Me: (through the tears) Yep. (pause...deep breath) Just so overwhelmed.
Eric: Do you need me to come home?
Me: (still crying) Nope. I'll be OK. It just never ends.
I got off the phone and sobbed. Then my 6 year old came down, needing me to settle an argument over Bar.bies. Of course, I had to finish feeding the baby first. Then I wanted to check on the NON-napping 2 year old.
And then, the baby didn't sleep. It was a long 2 hours until my husband walked in.
Thankfully, as soon as the hubby walked in the door, he sent me to bed. An hour and a half later, I felt a little more able to face the world.
Pancakes for dinner anyone?
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9 comments:
I remember conversations like that with my hubs and I only had 3 kids (or 2 or 1) at the time. Each birth brings that overwhelming feeling, at least it did for me. Lack of sleep certainly doesn't help much, either. Hang in there, girl, you know time brings about all the change you desire. We just have to wait. (easier said than done, of course!)
Oh, and yes, I do need a recipe for pancakes, btw. And, yes, we do have pancakes for supper quite regularly around here. (honestly, we do!)
You are doing a great job! I loved reading about your first day of school, too. Glad you took it easy! Take care of yourself.
Hugs!
Becky
OK, I won't accuse you of having it all together -- but I so appreciate how you still take your kids out and give them opportunities for learning and experiencing life. My own inclination is just to stay home. A LOT. :) And I think my kids have had pasta for dinner three nights this week! Pancakes might even be a better option!
And here I thought you were superwoman! Hang in there girl!
i remember really hard days with just my 2. i can't even imagine what life must look like with your 4.
i wish i could lend you some advice that would make everything easier for you, but we both know there is no such thing. no formula to make each day carefree and laundry to take care of itself.
just know that you are a wonderful mother and although your job isn't easy, it's the most important thing you can be doing. your kids know how much they're loved so who cares if it's pancakes for dinner.
Hang in there. I always heard that the transition from one to two children was the hardest and any beyond that was fairly easy....apparently not. But give yourself a little slack. You are juggling 4 kids, homeschooling, sleepless nights, etc. I keep wondering why I can't get the laundry done, or more than a frozen pizza on the table. I basically feel like I'm in survival mode every day. I feel guilty when the kids watch too much tv too. But then I remember that this will pass in probably 6 months or so, and life will start developing into more of a routine. And what's 6 months in the whole scheme of life, right? I'll be praying for you when we're probably up at the same midnight hour feeding our little ones. You are doing a great job.
You can always call me girl. Been there. STILL there! :)
Love ya!
I am a horrible blogger, b/c I read you all the time (your in my reader) but have been bad about commenting.
I appreciate your honesty in your blogging. I love real moms.
I only have three, but I vividly remember a point after each kids was born where I felt completly overwhelmed and fearful that life would be like this forever. It isn't right after birth, b/c you have help and adrenaline and your basically on an emotional high. Its a few months later when your still not sleeping and after months of that you are a bit frazzled.
It will pass. You've gone through this 3 times before and you know it will get easier.
Hang in there girlie. I can relate as can many others.
Hi! I have five little ones and we found the transition to four the hardest!!! I can totally relate to the phone call you had with your husband! Looking back at it all now though, I think that it was 'a passing time', that life gets easier (or more manageable!) and that you need to press the slow down button so that you don't miss all those 'heaven' moments with your children. I'm so glad I did and can now remember the moments of sibling and new born bliss rather than messy kitchens and floors (not to mention the toys!). That's what counts!
God bless
Karen
Hi, I have never met you before, but I am a new homeschooling mom and I am also a blogger. My children are 5 and 2, and we are attending Classical Conversation once a week starting in September. It's so encouraging to read your blog and be inspired by God's power working in you, even in your weak moments. Keep it up, and may God continue to work power and glory in your life through all your ups and downs as a mom and wife. Not by power, nor by might, but by my Spirit says the Lord of Host.
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