**Sunday 9:30 AM - T is fine and got some sleep last night while breathing normally! We are taking her to the doctor's today to recheck her. Thanks all for your prayers and thoughts. I am a tired mommy, so I won't be returning calls or emails till later today.
What began as a date night for the hubby and I has ended in a trip to the ER for little T. Eric is there with her as I type.
We knew it was not going to be a good night. T has airway issues and whenever she gets a cold, it usually leads to more. We have been to the ER several times with her struggling to breathe. It is typically due to croup with stridor, which leads to a horrible sound each time she inhales. She also begins to wheeze and her breathing becomes quite labored.
We have all of the proper in home treatments, so we knew what to do when she woke up with that croupy sounding cough tonight. We used her nebulizer. We gave her an oral steroid. Then, Eric and she sat in the bathroom while the hot shower filled the room with steam. Unfortunately, the treatments weren't working tonight.
She ended up in a state of panic, struggling to breathe. It sounded horrible as she gagged and cried. This, of course, sent me into a state of panic immediately. Watching her struggle to breathe grips my heart with fear like nothing else can do. I feel so scared, so helpless, and so afraid all at once.
Thankfully, my husband remains calm. He has asthma and has dealt with this issues his entire life. He calmly informs me that she is just panicking and needs to calm down. He took her outside for a little walk. Slowly, he carried her down the street and talked to her about all of the things that were outside. She began to calm down and knowing that she was in good hands, I headed into the house.
I, unfortunately, was not as calm. I let the tears fall as I sat in the living room. My sense of fear in these situations is overwhelming. I began to pray for her protection and God brought Psalm 121 to my mind. In verse 3 it says, "...he who watches over you will neither slumber nor sleep." A sense of peace began to fill my spirit. The one who created T is protecting her RIGHT NOW! He will not slumber. He will not sleep. He is watching. He is here.
I joined Eric and T outside for a little bit as we searched for "la luna". Then we all headed in to watch, Cars (her favorite movie). After 45 minutes, her breathing was still labored, so we made the decision to have Eric take her to the ER. She was calm as they left, though the sounds of her breathing were rough.
She is going to be ok, but I am waiting for the phone call I need to hear that all is well. It is hard to sit here and wait, but typing is helping to pass the time.
It is Saturday night around 10:45 PM, if any of you are reading this around that time, please pray for little T tonight! I will hop on tomorrow to let you know that she is OK (once we all get a little sleep)
I lift my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip- he who watches over you will not slumber,
Indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you - the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm - he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.